Hey seismologists,
After a long freakin day of class along with a debate, I returned to my apartment as if I was tranquilized. I mean I was dying for a nap. So, after lunch, I did just that. However, I had a really weird dream... almost bordering on nightmare. Here's all I remember...
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At first, I'm standing in this big field wondering where the crap I am. Suddenly, I'm surrounded by a bunch of tall guys who could all pass as linebackers. As I'm being pushed around I realize I'm being coralled toward something. Eventually, I'm on this wooden plank being prodded toward the end. Once I get there, I look down and see this big pit of lava. I can only assume it's a freakin' volcano. As I creep over the edge, a big voice says something which I remember sounding like "Jerk!". Then I begin falling...
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And that's when I woke up. I was all sweaty and breathing fast and shit. It was fucking weird.
After getting up and listening to some music to try and calm my nerves, I get to thinking about what the dream might've meant.
I've come to the conclusion that it has something to do with "you know who" dumping me. If you'll recall, I was rather hateful in my blog after it all went down. Many have told me that I had the right to be so mean and angry. So, at the time, I played it off.
However, after this dream, I've realized that even if I had the right to act like an asshole, it wasn't necessarily the right way to act. I mean, I've been dumped before and I've felt shitty afterwords, but never shitty enough to act like I did.
So, I know an apology now probably won't mean squat, since it won't make up for what I did. But, I'd like everyone who read my blog earlier to consider this entry as an apology. Whether you were directly affect by them or not.
I'm not a jerk... and anyone who really knows me knows that. I was just really pissed off and let my anger get a hold of me. I'm gonna count this as my only real "asshole moment". I can say with a good amount of certainty that it won't happen again.
Am I still upset about the whole thing... yes. But I'm not overtly shitty anymore and refuse to be an asshole about it. In retrospect, I'm very ashamed of how I acted. If I'm doomed to be the only nice guy on this planet and have no girlfriend, I'll take that over being a prick.
Ok... now a feel a bit better.
~Nate-O
(P.S. ; I'm going to turn off the "comment moderation" thing. I don't feel like being a facsist anymore either.)
3 comments:
Yes, I was *horribly* offended. Ply me with offerings of booze...oh wait, you weren't talking to me. Well, still give me some booze! j/k
I don't offend easily, and we had one hell of a party. As they say, hindsight is 20/20, and...no fun.
Good luck in finals, if you're around Friday or Saturday Ryne and I will be needing a good "Drunk Night" to prepare for finals and to cope with the horrors of News201.
News 201 for the loss...
-M9-
Volcano dream aside, I still maintain that you handled the situation like any human being would. Only Commander Data would have taken it better.
As for interpretation of your dream, here's my take: The linebackers represent the asshole jock people of the world. The volcano represents a volcano. You got thrown in by the assholes because you got in the middle of their football game.
What does it all mean? Firstly, it means you spend too much time exposing yourself to volcanoes and/or volcano-related stimuli. Secondly, football players are generally a bunch of fucking retards who have trouble counting past threeve. Thirdly, it was hilarious that someone called you a jerk AFTER you were already falling into a volcano.
...But they could have said something else. "Jock!", meaning that they were re-affirming their own stereotype. Or they could have been saying "twerk!" as in if you would be even MORE of an asshole when dealing with girls, you wouldn't fall into so many volcanoes anymore.
Lastly, just remember that there are always incoming freshmen girls who are easily wooed by promises of booze. It's not sinful if you deserve it.
~Bedtime
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