This is my first blog since I got back from Chicago. Normally, I would talk about the fun times my Dad and I had. Instead, I've decided to rant. So if you're not interested in hearing me whine like a little bitch or have better things to do, go ahead and leave. I'll understand.
Ok, disclaimer done.
As I was drifting off to sleep last night... at only 10 fucking pm... I thought about my life at the moment. And you know what I realized?
The real world sucks.
Not the MTV show (which also blows goats), but my life right now post-college. I remember right before I graduated how much I wanted out of school. Now, all I want to do is go back. Having to become an adult and have responsibilities is really lame!
Let's break it down. First, there is the money situation. I thought I had it bad in college... but damn was I mistaken. I make enough to get by, but every month it seems I have less and less in my bank account.
Here's all the crap I have to pay for right now:
-Rent (which is my fault because I decided to live in a very nice two-bedroom by myself.)
-Electricity
-Cable and Internet (but at least it isn't Comcast)
-Water
-Cell Phone
-Credit Card (I don't use it that often, but it still makes the list)
-Student Loans
-Food
-Gas (because I live 35 minutes from work... also my fault)
And, coming soon: Car Insurance!
Wow, that all sucks balls.
On top of that, my Dad keeps saying he wants me to get a new car so we can give my Cavalier to my sister. I don't think he realizes that I don't make that much money. It's small-market radio and I'm the low guy on the totem poll. Plus, I've only been there officially for four months, so I can't go ask for a raise right now.
Not that I'd get it anyway because radio companies are cheap as hell.
So, I think what I'll have to do is find another job... a second job. I had always known there was that possibility, but I didn't think I'd need to do it as a Production Director.
Or I could just go buy five bucks worth of lotto tickets every week and hope I get lucky.
I'm already lost on where I was going with all this talk of finances. However, I think a bigger issue is how much I miss my friends.
Noblesville, Floyd's Knob, Louisville, Indy, Renssalaer, Crown Point, Florida... Some are farther away than others but it all still makes me feel lonely as hell.
The only good thing is that Lindsay comes back to Muncie in a few weeks. But, I'm sure she won't want me hanging out with her all the time. Which is fine, I don't want to be a mooch.
It was kind of funny over the weekend in Chicago how my Dad kept asking questions about her. He does that every time I'm interested in a girl. What's even funnier is hearing his reactions to some of the stuff. Like when I told him she has tattoos, he couldn't stop talking about it. He's just very passively judgemental about things, and thankfully I've gotten so used to it that unless he brings it up constantly, it doesn't piss me off any more.
Damn, I really wanted to rant some more, but now I have to go to work.
Could someone just give me a million dollars so I won't feel so shitty about life?
~Nate-O
1 comment:
i feel EXACTLY the same way you do.
glad to see someone else understands.
you can always move down here...there's lots of radio stations and they do some fucked up shit on the morning shows--mucho lulz.
maybe we should arrange an Indy day...
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